The ice cream store
I went to as a little girl
with my grandmother
closed
My grandmother always got Bing Cherry
I got rainbow sherbet
They sell the brand in the grocery store nowadays
but I doubt they even make Bing cherry anymore
and I never see rainbow sherbet
I think of my grandmother
and things that disappear
when you aren't looking.
Remembering things
that are no longer there
I close my eyes
try to smell it
taste it
touch it
to be in that place for that moment
back in that long forgotten time
in the bubbles of my memories
that burst
and leave me
emptier than I was before
I "owe" two more
Coffee brews on the counter
Soup simmers on the stove
The cold snap of November
Presses against the kitchen window
I am thankful
for hard decisions made
that led me to
the peace of my kitchen
on this early Sunday morning.
Is it bad
that I crave chocolate in the morning
I read somewhere
that craving sweets means you are low on protein
But the only eggs I crave
are the chocolate ones
filled with caramel
or cream
or
well you get the picture
Chocolate is one of the four basic food groups
Medicine for when you are sad
It is said that the response to chocolate is similar to falling in love
so
let me fall in love
every morning
with chocolate
I saw an angel
in the clouds the other day
Long flowing
gown
long flowing
hair
She sailed gracefully
between the sun and the earth
and slowly blew away
in gossamer strands
across the baby blue sky
Waiting for the rain
I can smell it coming
I can feel it
in my chest and in my bones
but the storm is far off in the hills
it may never come to the valley
but we will see the lightening
hear the thunder
that will keep us
jumping in our sleep
They visit my dreams
those passed on
for whom my love
has no place to go
Except in dreams
a final goodbye
a resolution of old wounds
a comfort that
they are happy
healed
and causing mischief
in wherever we wind up
at the end of this road.
