I forgot to open the little door on the Advent calendar. Christmas is 24 days away and I am in more uproar than normal.
I need to shop
I need to bake
I need to figure out just what and where I am doing... anything!
So far, the holiday is NOT something I am looking forward to. As an adult, the holiday is like a snowstorm. IT looks pretty in the distance, but when you are in the middle of it, it's not so much fun.
I need to take a breath. I want this to be a nice holiday for all of us. I need to remember that doing something to make it so is all I can do. Unhappy people will always be unhappy. I can't help but feel this will be one that burns into our memories for a variety of reasons.
I need to bake.
We are decorating minimally, as the plan it to be elsewhere on Christmas day. I guess I am just tired and the thought of all that needs doing is getting to me.
I need to remember what I always tell myself. When life gets overwhelming, take small bites. I need to break it down into do-able doses, as the song says. I am a planner, so tonight I will take a look at everything I think I need to do and see what I NEED vs what I want.
Just takes money which is always in short supply around here these days.
I need to scale back my expectations on myself. I need to see what I can do and go from there, I am not Wonder Woman. I need to ask for and ACCEPT help in some of what need to be done.
Christmas baking always makes me think of my mom. I will probably be baking on Sunday, if working the Mini-maker faire at the Library doesn't take all of my energy this Saturday. It's a HUGE event, lots of fun but lots of work for all involved.
I NEED sugar cookies and I am dying to try my cookie roller that I bought from Pampered Chef earlier this year. If it works well, I may take it out to the kids house to bake cookies with Bob. He is quite the little chef. We baked cookies together when his brother was born. The kids all love the sugar cookies. Decorating can be fun. When we baked together, I would up covered in flour. He loved the experience, so that is all that really matters.
Gotta get moving. I have a busy week ahead of me. I have a lot of Union stuff to do. I had to laugh. We were watching The last Jedi and there was that scene where they catch up with Maz and she is in the middle of a fire-fight and they ask her what is going on and she says "union dispute" I could SO relate!
Happy Monday! 2020 is just around the corner.
